Yesterday I forgot to set my timer. That was an accident. Today I cheated. I knew I should pick a dark deck (like Boho Gothic) but thought, it’s Friday, we need something light, so I picked the Tarot of the Magical Forest.
When I shuffled the 8 of Cups fell to the floor. I thought, well that’s not happy, I’ll shuffle and cut. That didn’t count, dammit. Then I pulled the 2 of Wands. So much for my attempt at forcing happy just because it is Friday.
So what do I see here in these…wistfulness. Happiness is not now but somewhere or sometime else. Not a popular mantra these days of living in the now. But still, there is the idea of thinking about what you want, what you may not have now, and admitting it (8 of Cups) and making a plan to get it (2 of Wands).
Today I am exhausted. Hot flashes very bad and new allergy med kept me from sleeping. So it is good to go through piles of work to do and ideas I’ve jotted down and organize things. Not happy with the chaos of my office and my career, so admit I’m not where I want to be and start making some attempt at setting a direction.
Being tired may help. I find being tired keeps me from over-thinking (duh) and helps me to be open to intuitive insights.